OMMMMM

i need to zen.

i’m freaking out for the week ahead. i have good reason to freak out but still, i shouldn’t. i should stay calm. OMMMMM.

i realised how much i’ve to prep for A levels (OMGOMGOMG). and idk how well i’m spending my time now. if i didnt put my clay mask/ take 2 afternoon naps today, i could have completed more work. BUT i’d end up with more pimples, worse skin, and reduced concentration when studying.

i seriously don’t know how to decide/ weigh decisions ):
if i went out with my family for lunch, i’d get joy from having quality family time. but i didn’t, chose to stay home to study, so the OC was family time ._. and idk if i should live in the moment or live for the future. i don’t wanta regret losing anyone/ anything just cos i wanted to focus on studies instead.

OMG.

i decided, for the coming week. i am not going to nap. its a misnomer (prolonged nap=sleep).
its an excuse. so,
I WILL STUDY TILL 12 AM EVERYNIGHT & AWAKE AT 6 AM EVERYMORNING
at least for the 4 days ahead! (ok here’s a resassuring smiley)